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Sunday, April 30, 2006
yet another horrible experience; oh i am just so surprised im not dead. i really want to thank daddy and mummy (aka weiling and vanessa) thanks for ur care and concern. weiling im very sorry if i frustrate you with my seemingly nonchalance.. but i assure u im not holding it back. i am really releasing all my pent up whatevers and maybe at that point of time i was just really shaken. im sorry, really. i hope you arent angry anymore, directly or not. mummy too, i dunno how to thank you enough for rushing down to my house at 12am just to see if anything is happening. thanks to both of you, to know that you two care. just that is enough. sorry to worry you ): wont ever again. i love you two and i mean it. and kemin my yu tou, it was such a coincidence. xie xie (: my double eyelids are back i guess. though still halfway there. haha. went to parkway parade, and managed to pull mummy along. hmmm is she baby or mummy now :/ cos for the day shes become the baby while i become the mummy when we shop with my parents for baby stuff. haha! gi na! had fun (: i owe her one buck. shall do my communism thing. hope my paiju wont clash with eng typists stuff tomorrow. i really cant miss any of both. or im dead. hope i wont get home late! need to do work ): perish. soon. Friday, April 28, 2006 Your best friend is she who brings out the best within you What is a "best friend"? Is it the person who makes you laugh the most? Is it the one who gives you the best advice? Or is it the one who makes you feel good? NO, it's the person who helps you reach your potential. Sometimes the person does make you laugh and feel good. But other times, he or she looks you in the eye and tells you what you dont want to hear. A best friend is willing to do whatever it takes to help you become the person God created you to be. ripped this off yanzhen's blog. nice (: and she was SPECTACULAR at the tabletennis competition today! killed her opponent str away with 3-0 (: the rest of the players were good but there was this doubles that i think couldn do their best and when they ended both cried. but sn is still proud of u two! -blames the net- overall we didnt win but the team still rocks! :D almost couldn make it back to sch for sports day, but in the end we arrived JUST in time for the house cheer routines! hahah yay (: all did well! then there was this rain that became super huge we had to stop. got drenched but i didnt mind! had fun waving the flag for a long time :D train arm muscles leh. red was last. but NEVERMIND BECAUSE WE ARE SO GONNA DO BETTER NEXT YEAR!!! we must not be affected by todays results afterall the process was the most important, and having fun during the process was the most important (: so red house! -cheers- jiayou next year! every year i'll blog the house cheers on sports day, today i shall do the same! in RED!!! HEY! zhun bei hao le ma? HONG ZU! wo men zhen FUN-TASTIC! balabababa RED'S LOVING IT. we are the superheroes we are the ones who're gonna win this year now we're gonna stand together show them the spirit and our mighty power red house is gonna set the gear cant you hear we'll win this year we're gonna get get get you down get you pinned down to the ground we'll fight. we'll fight we'll fight we'll fight we'll fight with all our might and win this race tonight CHECK IT OUT woah~~ RED HOUSE! we got the fastest runners RED HOUSE! we got the strongest fielders RED HOUSE! we got the best cheerleaders KRYPTONITE win the day fighting hard trying to win the golds here we come just in time red kryptonite girls KRYPTONITE! uhhuh this' our fight all the girls stomp your feet like this few times we've been round that track we're ready to attact and lead the pack cos we're the superheroes~ ka~~ POW!!! REDHOUSEROCKS!! :D Thursday, April 27, 2006 sports day tomorrow! i hope it will be as spectacular as the last 2 years (: i have enthu same house classmates this year!! yay we shall all scream together and not feel over enthu :D woohoo! just reached home after props making. haha damn fun :D i am happy for contributing to red house (: painted superman capes in the end painted myself everywhere -.- stayed till 8++ den went dinner and home with mummy. i feel like chopping her leg off, den burn her so she cant take it and sing for me. off to my beauty sleep. JIAYOU LIYING FOR TABLETENNIS! GO RED KRYPTONITE! Wednesday, April 26, 2006 im so STUPID(put invisible because im told im using someone elses special word). take SO long to figure out math. the one which everyone knows how to do. i guess so? aiyah in any way im inferior lorh. yay tomorrow have a chance to pai [[zui ai]] again :D cos some ppl coming to shoot our ccas. hoho ugly xiaowei will become the dashing qingsheng again! but this time jiamin not here to help me style my hair ): geog test finally gone; all the huahui ppl in purity except cecilia and ziqin, we went crazy in class hahaha. from cheering to dancing to scribbling on the board to laughing loudly to dancing FAMILY DANCE to screaming. den went for lunch before i had to rush to lishi meeting (: looked through the qihang proposals for the shirt programme booklet and tickets. den discussed ju stuff wahhhhhh intensive paiju! xing ku le yanyuan men! alright. so now my computer is disconnected but im still typing down here. since it takes about half an hour to link back, i shall not waste time here shall blog more. so tired nowadays, cannot tahan not sleeping before 12. yesterday felt so so guilty even when my bro came in to use the comp i was just 20% awake. and i was still holding my geog notes in my hand. did i mention i really want to faint at mummy's egoness? and that girl super cheng qiang, whole body have problem den dont want admit, suddenly have a pained expression den shock me. lao ma ah, yao zhao gu zi ji, PLEASE! oh! my connection came back. i can post already. ciaos to the world! good luck to the people having a crisis (trying to be very discreet) and may every wrong thing change right! especially when things arent meant to be so bad. jiayou man. Monday, April 24, 2006 wah how great. i dozed while doing chem project, was quite amused by myself! cos apparently i dreamt again, and i typed two lines of my dream into the report -_-" so it was like "Our method has shown us that different chemicals react with each other to produce different colours. like that we also wont disturb anyone" heh see how no link? got another one funnier "Miss Praveena, who gave us ideas and advice on our experiments it was abit here and there i dunno" -laughs- feeling super neutral today. abit vexed but aye shant think too much. i hope i dont get monday blues. Saturday, April 22, 2006 3rd time participating in xiaopin.. and 3rd time we fail to achieve our goal. BUT NO, WE ARE NOT USED TO LOSING! we will still continue to strive (: though say we didnt get into the finals, we really did our best and have no regrets, so weimin and xuemin! dont be sad okay! its not the results that matter, its the process; our paijus and especially our moments on stage. those are the true memories and experiences we take with us after this competition instead of the part that we failed. i shall try hard to get associated with xiaopin next yr so to break the record of the first huahui huiyuan to be in xiaopin for four years! :D and next time we will do even better (: but like jenny says.. it is really touching to see the groups presenting their xiaopins one by one onstage. we all have the same goal, the same spirit. it is not to win other groups, but the mentality to try and get into the finals. all the groups presenting onstage today, have definitely gone through a hard period of time just like us, to rehearse, to get scolded by daoyans, to be criticised, to grow stronger, and do better and taking a step further to our goals. felt the unity and passion for drama in the auditorium itself. no matter what, xiaopin has been a very good experience. no matter what, i will not forget [[zui ai]]. i love ESTI JIEYING KEMIN YUENSIN XUEMIN WEIMIN JIAYI!!! and not to forget dingting.. haha. i will not forget the day i turn into a SHUAI man! the story plot shall be implanted into my heart (: chuwen yingshi jingying myra jenny jinghan chuanping CONTINUE TO JIAYOU FOR JUBILATE!! you all rocked too, though technical problems rose up today but yall were still super good (: im proud of all of you! yeah, i definitely wont forget our dinner/supper at casuarina curry (: fish head curry rocks (: received weird weird presents today. i had a shaver.. a tablet keeper.. a baby panties -_-" from esti! and many green stuff! oh and more chocolates :D anyway thanks to those who came down to support us (: you all rock! and our daoju people also! thanks for all the encouragement, yeah thanks to KAIROU SHUSHIEN and PEIYI! WEILING! MUMMY! FIONA SERENE! XUEZHEN MONICA! oh yeah and wendy joanne maple cecilia (: and many more! special message! zhenqin.. i hope i didnt let you down (: HUAHUI ROCKS. XIAOPIN2006 ROCKS TOO (: [[ZUI AI]]; [[CE XIANG MENG SUO]]. school is tiringgggg. full dress was okay, i felt better. performed in front of the whole of huahui. no compliments and many improvements to be made. made everyone stressed. went to compass point with mummy bought stuff for xiaopin in the end the night went miserable. hurrrr. i think luiza is cute :D hahah. (she saw me in a 'weird outfit' so she says. understandable. while i was trying to dress like a 20+ 30 years old guy, danfong say i look like gangster and hweepeng say i look like ahpek) xiaopin tomms. or should i say.. in less than 12 hours time. good luck.. esti jieying jiayi weimin xuemin yuensin kemin (and xiaowei) we shall all do our best with no regrets! ((zui ai)) rocks (: Thursday, April 20, 2006 just at that moment i saw her coming back, my heart nearly stopped as i wondered who was making the eerie music. gosh nevermind. -shudders- math test and 6 rounds.. double dose of mental and physical torture :D but i did it i completed six rounds (mind you people that is a really big deal to me). pmb SEL workshop in the afternoon.. had a bit of fun with group six.. consisted of jiawei nicole belinda emain yiling and me (: crapped. hua yu cool! sorry i scared you mummy.. hurrrrr. still feeling kinda empty. Wednesday, April 19, 2006 mummy is crying cos im so gonna die for my math. and my napfa trial. ahhhh thursday is horrible! ): tireddddd. how to concentrate on math? -______- sadd very sad. -thinks of mummy's diary- okay not so sad (: it is so funny and lame la :D but sweet! thanks music is distracting me. no music for the night! i shall chiong my way through math! gambatte (: everyone having math test tomms too! -prays- Monday, April 17, 2006 theres seriously something wrong with my right shoulder blade. it hurts alot alot when i lift up, push back and reach forward ): finished reading and understand my history.. did a few math questions in the library too. at 9 oclock i was so tired i decided to let myself sleep, so i put alarm at 9:15. heh. well in the end i when i woke up feeling refreshed, it was 9:02 -_- time passes slowwwww. the 'refreshness' didnt stay long, i turned into zombie mode after that. mummy came 10 min before the library closed hahaha. and she refused to tell me what she originally wanted to tell me when she came down. sighh. she dont want to sing for me also ): make me sad only. when will i ever have a totally free day? i look so much for its arrival. the more i sing the song im recently addicted to, the more sad i am. tsk. its on my mind 24/7! and finally i wont sleep during classes cos i have the song in my mind (: tomms paiju alone at 7am.. heh. too lousy. i feel caterpillars in my stomach everytime i think of xiaopin... in 5 days time they'll probably grow into butterflies and fly around when we're about to compete. alright i know very lame :D Sunday, April 16, 2006 xiaowei is a happy nerd today. did alot of work as well as slacked alot today. im still fascinated by my phone lalala. heh. suaku. the rain was part of the contribution to the degree of my mood (: ah, accomplished. the stars spells good today (meaning my horoscope) and not that good for tomorrow :( had a long long walk with mummy just now. crapped so much along the way la. and the place i took her wasnt scary at all la. minus the two ominous clouds of smoke :D had fun though. but lousy her refused to sing. DOHHHHH. so sad. saw alot of froggies. reached home at 11 and was surprised my dad didnt scold me. at least better than yesterday la. 11:20 :P why do i feel like i have things left undone? ): but no matter what i'd finally relaxed for the first time of weeks (: thanks to mummy and rain! got a new phone, haha super excited. motorola v3 razr (: black and cool! mummy says its so not me. got meh? ): finally.. one day im wholly free. and i feel weird. and im studying!! i cant believe i actually have the time to study! gosh man. emath ehist and chi test next week. and xiaopin competition!! oh good luck to those taking lit and egeog too. haha. week5 horror! ziqin just reminded me of some huge work. die lorh. may be back at night (: Friday, April 14, 2006 i'll be totally lying if i told you today was a wonderful day. right from morning 7+ evaluation about xijuzuzhuang, till paiju when kbcc is closed for holidays, to xiaopin paiju where everything that happened was stilted and awkward, to the pouring rain, to home and all those cliched stuff. oh, how wonderful and fantastic my life is! my brother just got into a minor car crash while his wife is having a crisis at home waiting for him to bring her to the hospital. and meanwhile, at my side my mum was screaming, then sobbing for the rest of the 20min i managed to stay cos i broke the news i'll be going for a band concert. great.. so great. and there goes my work. im really doing splendidly these days. feel like heeding to this song.. but ah, people do have their moments of wanting to stay within their comfort zone(though it isnt really comfortable as well). the sun will come out tomorrow bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow there'll be sun just thinking about tomorrow clears away the cobwebs and the sorrow till there's none when im stuck with a day that's gray and lonely i just stick out my chin and grin and say the sun will come out tomorrow so you gotta hang on till tomorrow come what may tomorrow tomorrow i love ya tomorrow you're always a day away Wednesday, April 12, 2006 quite a day today, feel so overwhelmed by all feelings. haha. dunno whats up with me la. bio was so totally horrible ): but the tips from mummy did help. thanks alot alot. and surprisingly, i actually slept during the paper. had no idea why, but it was the first time i slept IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PAPER. i just dozed off! thank god i woke up 15 min before it ended.. managed to scrap through the rest of the questions writing crap cos i didnt know how to do. got back geog test; was really not confident of passing when ms luo said there were 7 failures. i took eternity to walk to take my paper and when i saw it i totally went weak with relief, and i mean it. almost couldn make it back to my seat. this was how scared i was. didnt go for lishi meeting cos had to do my science experiment in the lab.. and found out paiju was cancelled. in the end spent the rest of the time after my experiment with jieying xilei joey evonne and eliz at the other science lab. they were preparing for some competitions, burning nuts :D hahahah. me and joey were just there to accompany. fun... i miss twocharity :( anyway funny stuff happened! 1. while we were all gossiping in the lab, xilei was very inefficient and was the last one to finish. she had to boil water with the nuts on fire. the thermometer was inside, and suddenly she exclaimed "ahhh!! the temperature is 120 already!!! what happen!" den she wait for a while more, "ms khor!! can i take it out! its going to burst already! the thing is reaching the end already!!" so she took it out. while we were were all thinking how water can boil until so high temp, she shouted "oh i never put water!!" all of us fainted. 2. on the way out went to return the class key. there were no more teachers already, so i just went in. den as we got out of the staffroom, joey suddenly shouted at me "huh i thought u put that into the drawer???" and the class key was in my hands -.- i was so shocked, i went "den what did i put in the drawer???" we were both very freaked out, but eventually i found out that i put my necklace into the drawer, the one jieying gave me. me and joey both stoned for about 5 seconds, then started laughing so hard no sound came out from us. we couldn catch out breathe until we reached the canteen. didnt know why it doesn sound funny here, but there was just something at that time that couldn make us stop laughing. and right after that joey had a nosebleed -.- came home.... and felt lost. out of point! Tuesday, April 11, 2006 you just dont well, of course you dont. you wont even try to, will you? thanks for everything... but... im really really scared. im stressed. no i cant be. jiayou xiaowei. i know you can do it. oh what shit. Monday, April 10, 2006 its great to know that eye twitches actually signifies that one is too tired. i dont have to worry something bad is happening everytime my eyes twitch or smth, which is super often. weilings pep talk is really kind of inspirational. she managed to wake me up from my state of doze. it feels like im running a mental marathon(which is better than a physical marathon cos i freaking dont have stamina), and though i am quite trained in that, i am starting to feel tired of everything. i'd always thought passion was everything, and let me go past all obstacles with a lightheart. and though that proved to be true, i do enjoy all the time i use on huahui stuff, in qihang, in xiaopin, in xiju. i love the process and its just so great to see all huahui pple working towards a goal. but everytime when i leave the space for home, i'll feel the extreme exhaust. and it carries on until i reluctantly give in to the temptation of my bed. it actually results in me neglecting all my work and tests, making me fall asleep in almost all my classes (Thats an exaggeration) and not being able to fork out time for all my projects and experiments. it is scary, freaky, frightening to dream about all the hectic huahui stuff everytime i doze off in the middle of my work. i dont know what it signifies. if i were a magician now, i would conjure up time for all the students who need it. i just need... one day. one whole day for me to regain my mental stamina before i start giving all out again. too bad no one can grant me that wish. *** star light star bright first star i see tonight wish i may wish i might *** Sunday, April 09, 2006 2nd day to community tour, last day in fact, but i wasnt allowed to go to the celebration party though jed and tommy were both urging me to. sad la! i missed the last one and i was gonna miss this. was the only st nicks girls today cos the rest of the ppl prefered to study for their tests. hmmm am i lazy or what? anyway its less fun today without them but still everything is the same.. talked more to josephine nicole jed and tommy. got to know a new friend amanda from ngee ann poly. shes really pretty! and she was on tv for a few times. yepps. oh forgot to mention that i got to know a friend from nyjc yest too.. shes called wenhui (: drama people are all nice! :D gave out pamphlets again. a woman gave me a shock; when i approach her and explain where im coming from she just haughtily said "ure scaring me" and rolled her eyes. WHAT LORH! haha nvm.. nevertheless i felt happy to see many polite singaporeans who rejected. but many stopped to listen to me explain too (: counted votes today. had a bigger area to count cos less volunteers today but however i was more efficient! dunno why.. oh yeah yesterday cos i was so flustered while counting, xu laoshi / huiling was like "xiaowei suan hao le ma? bu yao jing zhang, hao ren zhen orh" onstage!! and so. everyone watching the show knows my name now -.- but they wont remember la of course (: evelyn came today!!! gosh she damn cute la. still got one blond braid standing out from her brown hair :D very very cute yepps. happy to see her heh. that marks the end of dramabox community tour april 2006. i'll miss all the dramabox people surely! ): but im sure i'll see them again (: cut my hair... no face to go school la! surprised mummy didnt laugh when she saw me. heh maybe it isnt that bad. not as bad as last time where people call me voodoo dolls or dummies or what sort. at least now ppl dont ask me "xiaowei ni shou dao shen me da ji?" heh.. fringe ah.. grow back soon. hair ah, stay same length (: gotta rush homework. Saturday, April 08, 2006 after the dramabox thing today, i feel that i need to say : i miss all those familiar ppl in dramabox! though evelyn wasnt there ): but never mind! im glad seeing josephine nicole jed tommy :) and saw gongrong too! hes still funky as ever :) i miss mingtian -_- this time no duadaiji. sadd. paiju early in the morning... head was swimming all the way. brain juice imbalance. found alot of new errors within the whole ju! im part of all the trouble ): haiis. had some fun giving out the pamphlets/fans to passersby to inform them about the dramabox performance. i had to talk like machine gun to all the ppl that i target otherwise they'd have been gone before they actually hear that im not asking them to buy things -.- esti was super productive... so lihai! the show started.. we koped the clapper! so cute :D watched awhile, until 9 we went to standby for the voting stuff. hhaha quite cool cos had to hang a tag from out necks that says "vote assistants" and hold a clipboard and a ticker. act pro. joking la! cured part of my nolstalgia by helping with carrying alot of things. den went home after that.. i still have one more day (: im so gonna miss it after this. wonder why my reaction so big. emotional la. i love the people there! warm and friendly. yeh.. shall go and pia my e zuo ju zhi wen. thanks xuemin for the soundtrack! haha. gonna cut my hair! hope it doesn turn out disgusting... Thursday, April 06, 2006 typed half my entry and i closed the window. uh. shall say everything in short now. screwed up physics test. when i realised my mistake there was already no time to change. felt like dying as i walked out of the lab ): had this super bad feeling in my stomach during chem. i had a stomachache and when i stood up i felt like my left side was about to break. all stitched up. went for assembly and i was retching all the way. nothing came out of course. felt better after the assembly. the talk was interesting. went for paiju, den performed to wang. well.. at least we didnt hold much hopes. wang gave us a shock by saying the recommendation was actually the real thing. but owells. we shall just concentrate on xiaopin la. jiayou to ce xiang meng suo! and yeah cheer up xuemin/shermi! one week will pass by very fast. and yeah think of me sure will laugh already. i dunno why also but yeah. haha. jiayou (: went to the library at night to do up myras card. its kinda sucky ): after that... did 2 pages of ss before i was too tired and decided to go home. haha. too lousy. go, mummy. i believe u can think it through. i need my beauty sleep. Tuesday, April 04, 2006 ah! finally blogger let me in. haha. went to the roofgarden in the morning to kai sheng! man, we were noisy. the ppl on the track were like trying to find the source of the noise but we were kind of hiding so they couldn see :D school was okay, nothing interesting happened :/ directors course during cca today (: yay serene anges and i rock! :D so proud of them man lalala! watched abit of qihang2004 in the night before going library to write my xiju notes! so many to write la, since... two weeks before holidays! gave up on math. saw this really cute and poor kitten underneath mummy's block. it is black and it was really afraid of the surroundings la. mummy went to buy milk and food, while i kept the kitten there. haha not much risk it will go away anyway, it practically superglued to us. watched it eat for about 15min.. really very poor thing la! but anyway yay we are good samitarians van! i dont mind paying half the price of those food if u want claim money come and look for me horh! and ur one buck still with me -_-" rush rush qihang vcds... yeah man (: no need sleep already. Monday, April 03, 2006 bio lesson was horrible cos i was dozing off like practically the whole lesson. and i woke up with a different dream/nightmare about huahui each time! sally says im too stressed. heh i hope not. the whole day i was pretty down for some reason, i dont know why too. but the rain kind of cheered me up (: amazed by shaorou and her LOVELY attitude :D feel like killing mummy. why so secretive la! ): Sunday, April 02, 2006 i dont understand.. and im scared. things dont seem like what you say. its not a matter of believing you you know.. you didnt look very okay. in fact not okay at all. i hope i didnt do anything to make you upset. didnt do anything to make things worse. you know who you are. i'll never gonna say goodbye, jiu suan wo men ceng jin ju li duo me yao yuan, da ying guo bu hui wang ji zhe yue ding. i'll never gonna say goodbye, sheng ming bian de ru ci can lan yin wei ni cun zai. zhi yao you ai jiu you wei lai. zong zai li bie qian na yi ke ren zhu ku qi. jiang zhe fen mei li cang zai xin di. cheer up. im still here. and will always be here. 7 discs, 10 hours, satisfied. off to sleep! Saturday, April 01, 2006 last paiju before the... thing. :x wah gosh, finally got time to sit down and watch my e zuo ju zhi wen. thank god no one at home, i was crying in my brother's room like shit while watching it. never cried so many times watching a show before can! anyway it was great. my next fav show after hongdounvzhilian! (im crapping again) hmm... why do i feel like i have some things not done? :/ i dont like this feeling man. yeah man, i shall go watch my show (: before i find out i have any work to do and feel guilty! ciao. |
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